Friday, October 25, 2013

Thoughts on Motherhood...

I'm about a month into being a mom and here are my thoughts so far....

  • Being a mom is the best and by far, the hardest thing I've ever done
  • With that being said, there have been tears almost daily on my end...both happy tears and tears out of frustration
  • I've never enjoyed my workouts more than I have now....I need that hour in the morning to start my day off on the right foot even if it's at 5:30 AM
  • I plan on going back to work part-time at the end of December and I think this is the right decision for me.  I always thought I wanted to be a stay-at-home mom but I'm going crazy sitting at home all day with no adult interaction and going back part-time will be the best of both worlds
  • It's true when everyone says the days go by slow but the weeks go by fast. I can't believe she'll be 1 month old on Tuesday but at the same time, when I'm home with her by myself for 12 hours Monday-Friday, the hours just drag by...especially when she's fussy
  • Lack of sleep hasn't really bothered me but I will say, once Lucy is asleep at night, we usually get anywhere from 3-5 hours stretches of sleep without her waking up so it hasn't been that bad....
  • But the worst part of each day is trying to get her to sleep at night when she typically cries for 1-2 hours before falling asleep
  • I can't wait until we can get her on more of a schedule.  I feel like I can never leave the house with her because I don't know when she's going to go down for a nap, wake up from a nap, or want to eat
  • I never thought I'd change so many diapers in the backseat of my car in just a few short weeks
  • Breastfeeding has actually been a bit easier than what I anticipated but I'm glad that I've been pumping also to start building up a stash so I can leave the house and someone else can feed her
  • My biggest fear when I was pregnant was Todd & I not having enough time for the two of us and so far, I was right.  Once he gets home from work between 6:30-7:00 PM, we eat dinner and then pretty much start getting Lucy ready for bed and trying to get her to sleep.  I'm hoping this will change once she's able to fall asleep better but that could be wishful thinking.
  • I think I'm going to enjoy when Lucy is a bit older and can actually interact more.  Not that I don't love this newborn stage but it can be frustrating when she's fussy and I can't always help her or calm her down especially when she doesn't take a pacifier. 
  • I've never looked forward to the weekends more than I do now since it means Todd will be home which means an extra set of hands and more time with him
  • Todd has been such a great dad, not that I expected anything less, but he's definitely more patient & calm which helps at night when I'm about to pull my hair out from hearing a crying baby
  • And of course, I think that we have the cutest baby around!

Already holding on tight to her "purse"
Her onesie says it future running partner
Awake and happy...a rare moment!


AuntRosa said...

Congrats and it will get easier :)

Sarah @ Life, Love & Dinner said...

Know that you're not alone! Noelle is pretty easy going but it's still hard to get out and do anything because her schedule isn't very consistent. I hear it gets easier, though. Hang in there, mama!

Nikki said...

You sound exactly like me. Because of when Harper was born, I was able to be home with her all summer, which was awesome, but I was so glad when school started back up again. Newborns are so hard...the whole first year in fact was not my favorite thing. I loved it, don't get me wrong, but it was like a switch flipped around one year and then it really was awesome. It goes by fast like you said, so just enjoy those happy highs, and stay tough through those crappy lows. Let me know if you and Brittany get together...I'd love to meet you're little ladies.

Amanda@runninghood said...

Oh motherhood is so so hard. So rewarding, yes. Beautiful. Wonderful. Magical. But HARD. You are not alone. I remember these days when my kids were babies and toddlers. I felt CRAZY. So thankful for my husband how helped calm our kids before they fell asleep at nights. Two of our three kids were such fussy babies and would cry for hours at night for the first couple of months....if I would have had my husband to help, I would have lost my marbles..he would tell me to go to bed and put my ear plugs in so that I could get enough sleep to wake up for first feeding around 2 a.m. Things do get easier and more enjoyable. Baby stage is so sweet but for all the sweetness, there is an equal amount of hair pulling, losing our mind moments. Some might disagree with me with the "equal" part but that's how I felt those first few year. And Your little one is adorable!!

BeckyJo606 said...

This is such a real and honest post! I think you totally encompass the highs and lows of motherhood. It is really hard to balance baby + husband + yourself and it's something I struggle with daily. I feel like I can excel in one area and totally crap out in another. As much as I complain about working, I do think it gives me some balance in my life--and has allowed me to feel like a human again. :)

Nat said...

Being a mom is so tough but it gets better!! My son just turned 4 months old and so far this stage is so much fun- he's cooing, laughing, rolling over, grabbing things. He's becoming so much fun to interact with! The first 8 weeks are the hardest and then once you get the hang of it and get on more of schedule it's much better.
Also I've quickly learned that Target is the place moms go during the day and it does not matter if your baby is screaming. The first time I went and Miller started to act up/cry I started freaking out and then I turn the corner down another aisle and there was a kid having a full on tantrum while his mom just kept on shopping! I was shocked and but then quickly learned that sometimes as a mom you just have to grin and bear it and go about your shopping trip!